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Sunday, September 11, 2005

:: nobody understands ::

i happen to be feelin alot of pain now. its the type of pain that stabs right into the heart and lingers there? the kinda emotional pain that turns into physical pain and lingers on in yr heart? does anybody know what im talkin about?

nobody will understand the pain im going through. im not blaming anyone for it. i only have myself to blame. its all my fault. u noe as im writing this, the tears keep rolling down my cheeks. so much tears have stained these cheeks for the past few days... this hurt just sucks. it reali does.

and i have nobody to talk to. i noe all my frens are arnd and everything. and its not that i dowan to talk to them. its just that i cant. i noe nobody will understand. nobody will...

this post may seem very self-pityish... i dun care. i dun care... i just dun care anymore... i reali wanna shut out the whole world around me... its amazing how my prelims are tomolo and yet im going through all this shit. it reali sucks... it reali hurts. so much... wad shld i do? i reali am very tempted to shut the whole world out and be in my own world. a world where i would wipe my own tears, hug myself to sleep, love only me and myself... unfortunately, my heart bends towards love in a sad way.

this reali hurts... it reali does. dun ask me what's wrong because nobody will understand it. nobody will. im alone now...

actually i have alwiz been alone... i just never realised...

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8:28 PM
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