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Sunday, October 10, 2004

:: i havent gotten over... ::

i thought i was over it.

actually it was still there.

just that it was right at the back of my mind.

but it was still there.

i have not succeeded in letting go.

how foolish.

i had a dream last nite

a dream dat left me totally troubled today

very very troubled

of cuz it is about you

awkwardness stands in the way

but doesnt a close frenship usually stand strong

even in times of difficulty?

dont 2 gd frens usually put aside other issues

and let the frenship gain itself back?

even if matters of the heart set in

and things become more complicated

frens, especially gd frens,

they dun run away

actually, dats only if both parties are willing to stay

if one wants ro run

the other has to let go

but letting go isnt easy

and worse,

not thinking bout it after that

is even more difficult

i noe ure irritated at my attempts to get it going

i noe ure feeling terribly awkward

so im letting u be for now

it isnt easy

it nvr was easy

and it nvr will be easy

but i hope ull give

yrself

the chance.

when will u realise

that by yr actions

u are actually hurting me

i guess you will never noe...

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8:19 PM
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