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Friday, September 17, 2004

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school... right. Mr Hoe asked me why i din go fer PW period yesterday. thought we were all not goin? at least dats wad u all said too! nvm bout that. Mr Hoe during GP "spoke" to the class bout our attitude. claims he's reali upset with us. *stressed* told us that tchrs feel unappreciated. :P haiz. den after that Mr Pang oso spoke to us during Geog. said all our ponning and all is starting to shed bad light on Mr Hoe as our Civics Tutor. u noe wad? i think Mr Pang is reali nice. he was so subtle and so sincere bout it that ive decided. no ponning from now on. and it will be because i respect Mr Pang. yeah. but still... the tchrs feel unappreciated. and i feel bad for not giving the cards to the tchrs for tchrs day. think im gonna make them smth soon. yupz...

and we ended up havin a mini debate on the use of contraceptives. and yeah. it came upon the sensitive topic of religion. yeah. so much fer questioning my own faith today. cldnt even f-ing stand up for it. right. had pple tellin me that "dat means that not having sex at all is also killing a life den?" and "its retarded. spent ten years in a catholic sch and still find all that masses retarded... ..." come on... look... yes. you may believe in smth diff fr wad i do. you may haf yr own opinions bout it. i agree. i will listen to yr opinions and even laugh along and all. but when u start sayin that the way of life i believe in and live by is retarded... dats far too much. definitely crossed the line. show some respect for me maybe?

oh well. so many things runnin thru my head. i haf no idea how to think properly. yeah. sent my sis off today. yupz. everythin went on fine. yupz. i dun seem to understand some pple. i reali dun. izzit smth wrong with me? or izzit them? sucks!

argh... i hate life... i reali do...

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